Why are you trying to lose weight? What is the ultimate reason? Why is it so difficult to lose weight? I one day wanted to lose weight so I can be ‘skinny’. But what was my actual intention? My actual intention was to be ‘perfect’, ‘flawless’, and ‘desirable’. Some want to be skinny to be socially acceptable, to be sexually attractive, etc. I used to eat significantly less, counting every calorie entering my mouth, just to meet society’s specifications of being perfect and desirable. I did it because I hated how I looked like. I fed my mind images of perfection and used food/exercise as a punishment for my appearance. A few hours later, I would binge eat like mad. No wonder losing weight was difficult, because I also had the intention of ‘I hate my body’. Isn’t losing weight just a matter of moving more and eating right? I made it so complicated.
How I turned my intention around…
I told myself to just stop and breath. Why am I not getting anywhere? What do I really want? I don’t actually want to be skinny. I just want to be comfortable in my own skin. I want to be me. I want to be happy with what I see in the mirror.
I started to talk and interact with myself with genuine love and passion. My body that I rejected actually allows me to move to do my daily activities, my precious eyes can see all the beauty around me. The way my hands are designed and engineered enables me to grab a glass of water that I can sip through my mouth and my magical kidneys filter the water through my blood stream. All this is happening in my body. Don’t even get me started on the brain. Our bodies are a work of art, that we have yet to discover about and appreciate.
Once I started connecting more with my body, I swear I hugged myself, because I felt like everything is possible. As I truly love my body, I can work with it to get me to where I want to be. Automatically, I grabbed a paper and pen and started writing down what I’m going to eat the next day, my workouts, my studies and general things to do. I did it because I loved myself. This is my intention. My body deserves the best treatment and we will both (my soul and body) will help each other with love, passion, and power to be happy, healthy, and full of energy!
The journey wasn’t easy, I didn’t just switch to all things bright and beautiful overnight. It took time and effort, but it was definitely worth it and it is one of the best experiences of my life, because I learned so much! The key was being too overcomplicated and focusing on 10 things at once. Like my skin has to be flawless, my teeth have to be whiter than white, my hair has to be amazing and shiny, my legs have to be 10 inches in diameter, my chest has to be bigger…the list goes on. The truth is, it’s impossible to change my bone structure, no matter how much I wish, nothing is going to happen. I just had to get back to Earth, get back to basics and tell myself to wake up and get real. You only have yourself, you have potential and you can be the best that you can be in your own body, in peace with your mind and soul.