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My thoughts change everyday, the way I think changes everyday. I’m crazy – I contradict myself, prove myself right or wrong. I absorb what people say, assess it, and see if it brings me different views. I may be stubborn, but not with the way I think. Thoughts flow in my head about anything and everything. I’m stubborn with what I want to get in life. If someone says “no, you can’t do that”, I have to find another way to do it. For example, in my mock/trial exams at school, I didn’t want to study for them (not promoting that in anyway), and as a result, I didn’t get the best grades, but I didn’t care because I knew what I was doing. My teacher told me that I need to attend booster classes (which I didn’t go to), because I got a D in a certain subject and if I didn’t, I would fail in my real exam because I’m not prepared to work and that I have a bad attitude.  But I didn’t care, because I have my ways and I knew what I was doing. In my real exam, I got an A*, because when I want something, I’ll do anything to get it. At the end of the day, I didn’t care what the teacher said or thought about me – but I liked the fact that I proved her wrong in an unexpected way.

In contrast, I feel like it’s wrong to be stubborn with the way you think – how are you meant to empathise? Forgive? Agree? Disagree? Understand? Especially with all the misunderstandings in the world, whether it’s between two people or two countries, you need to open up your mind for a different view. For example, murder is wrong, but when you put yourself in the murderer’s shoes, you are able to understand (not justify) why people do such things, it’s all about exercising the way you think.  The less we are stubborn with the way we think, the more we understand one another and the more we are filled with kindness that isn’t distorted by differences, prejudices, events, memories, etc.

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loveI’ve been brought up to think that I don’t need anyone for anything. Then, I meet someone and suddenly everything’s changed. I feel like I need that person, I can’t live without that person, I’m obsessed with that person. I’ve opened up for that person in every way, knowing I have a fear of getting too close to people because they might hurt me, but yet, I trust so much in that person.

I feel confused because I’ve always been somehow not in need of anyone, but now since I feel like I do, I’m starting to think of myself as weak or empty or in need of security. But then again, I feel like that person is a part of me, inside me, my other half, my completion, my true companion, my best friend… It’s like that person has seen me in my most vulnerable state, but that’s my natural state. Inside, we are all vulnerable.

“Bountiful is your life, full and complete. Or so you think, until someone comes along and makes you realize what you have been missing all this time. Like a mirror that reflects what is absent rather than present, he shows you the void in your soul – the void you have resisted seeing. That person can be a lover, a friend, or a spiritual master. Sometimes it can be a child to look after, what matters is to find the soul that will complete yours” – The Fourty Rules of Love by Elif Shafak (novel)

I think that the best way to find someone whom you have a special connection with is through time. As long as you are patient, God will reward you and give you what is best for you.

I don’t want to say that your happiness depends on another person, because you can choose to be happy in every moment of your life and at the end of the day, you are with yourself and can provide everything for yourself, but it’s so special when you view someone to be you – like you are one person, and you’re so comfortable together to just be, and that person can be anyone, even your pet?

 

 

 

I miss long nails!

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I miss having long nails, and it’s actually quite easy to achieve. The ultimate tip is to massage your finger nails (specifically cuticles) with olive oil or coconut oil (and love) every day before bed. Do it more frequently for even better results. Your nails would not only grow longer quicker, but also stronger and healthier.

We’re Like the Big Bang!

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DSC_0136 While everyone in this world strives to get somewhere and become someone, only to leave it all behind after death, you aim for the supreme stage of nothingness. Live this life as light and empty as the number zero. We are no different from a pot. It is not the decorations outside but the emptiness inside that holds us straight. Just like that, it is not what we aspire to achieve but the consciousness of nothingness that keeps us going – Shams Tabrizi 

This quote makes me feel like we’re similar to the big bang – born or created from a point of singularity, and as we grow, we expand  into a sea of universes, worlds, colours, and shades (our false egos), only to forget that point of nothingness/singularity of peace, quiet, and humbleness. Doesn’t that show how the universe is a manifestation of ourselves? Everything is so interconnected…

 

Real Friends vs. Fake Friends

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loveI’ve been hurt a lot by friends of all sorts and one day many years ago, I came home from school crying because I didn’t have any friends, because I didn’t find anyone who ‘thinks’ like me. I’m not saying that I was better than anyone else, or more mature, but being the only child, you naturally get more influenced by grown-ups. So when I’m in class, and start talking about the current economic climate or corrupt politicians (because I hear my parents talk about that stuff), other kids naturally run away… My mum told me ‘you are your own best friend’, and my dad told me ‘best friends don’t exist, because they come and go’.

I found that girls are the worst. They get jealous, they gossip behind your back, they want you to look/act a certain way, because somehow their image depends on that, they pretend to be your friend, but you’re actually secret enemies. Of course, that’s a massive stereotype, but I’ve always experienced those sorts of girls in my life.

I thought it would get better when I’m older, since we become more mature, and it does, depending on how you look at it. We all have different priorities, and again, massive stereotype but it’s what I’m currently experiencing: people my age tend to have priorities of being ‘social’, whether it’s having accounts of every single social media company that ever existed or going to parties, getting drunk, etc.

I’m not interested in that, because my soul is not going to benefit from that, but someone else might. I’m not saying I’m ‘right’ or ‘better’, but I’m saying that we’re all taking different paths. And hopefully, we’ll reach the same destination of self-discovery, and self-improvement, even if our methods or ways of living is completely different.

So, what is a real friend?

I define it as someone who uplifts you for no advantage or gain of their own. They do it because they simply love you, respect you, and trust you, which are three highly important things in any friendship or relationship.

But when it comes to friends, it’s totally quality rather than quantity. I feel like just one real, genuine friend, who truly loves you is equal to a million friends, and you would be very lucky to find a friend like that, so smile if you do (and smile if you don’t!)

At the end of the day, you have to learn to become your own best friend, as cheesy as it sounds. You will always have yourself, you sleep with yourself, you wake up with yourself, eat with yourself, and you’re inside yourself. So, make the most out of you, and make sure to have alone time, when you can just talk to yourself and self-reflect, it’s golden time. Funnily enough, the more you bond/connect with yourself, the more easier it will become to bond/connect with other people, since you’re more familiar with your needs and priorities in a friend. And when you can provide for yourself, you can definitely provide for others.

40 Rules of Love (Novel)

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DSC_0084This is not a book review, it’s more of an expression of my love to this novel! The people who know me well are highly aware that I hardly read. I start reading a (fiction) book and my mind escapes into a universe of thoughts and I forget that I’m even reading a book, as my attention span disappears within seconds. Until, one day, my mum got me a novel and she stated that it had a very unique structure and that it has been translated into several languages, so I thought I’d give it a go, since I’m taking English at school, so I better start getting used to reading.

The truth is, I’d recommend this novel to people who love reading, but I’d recommend it even more to people who don’t!

It takes you to a magical place, where you seriously just can’t put it down. I can’t believe I just finished reading a book (massive achievement for me!)

Firstly, it teaches you to discover a deeper dimension of yourself and the people around you. It’s very spiritually charged, yet humble, that would appeal to everyone of any beliefs or backgrounds.

Secondly, it links modern times to ancient times, as it talks about events in history like the crusades, the Mongolian empire as well as exploring lands from an ancient perspective such as Turkey, Iraq, and Syria, which makes it so mysteriously and exotically beautiful. It ties religions and faiths together, as the author wanted closeness of traditions that we’re often encouraged to see as distant from each other.

Thirdly, every chapter is an insight of a character, so you get in their mind, whether it’s the star of the book, a killer, a prostitute, a beggar, and so much more. It’s like you get connected to people of all shades so powerfully. Yet, every single character is somehow spiritually inclined as time goes, so you grow with them.

Fourth, it talks about Rumi (a very popular Sufi poet) and the hardships he faced as he declined in the eyes of society as being a ‘respected scholar’ to a very spiritually humble individual, as he was inspired by the star of the book, Shams of Tabriz, who you will inevitably fall in love with! In fact, the title, ’40 Rules of Love’, was written by Shams, who was an enlightened man who enabled to change and inspire every single character in the book, no matter who they were.

Finally, the story is simply touching and it made me experience larger-than-life emotions while reading it, I must admit, it made me cry (not because it’s so sad, but because it’s so heart-touching). It made me laugh, smile, and think. In addition, every rule of love is something that you can tie to your own life, for me, it’s: While everyone in this world strives to get somewhere and become someone, only to leave it all behind after death, you aim for the supreme stage of nothingness. Live this life as light and empty as the number zero. We are no different from a pot. It is not the decorations outside but the emptiness inside that holds us straight. Just like that, it is not what we aspire to achieve but the consciousness of nothingness that keeps us going – (Rule 33). It inspires me to leave my false ego alone, and to connect more with my true self, not my image. Hence, this website is called ‘Our Beautiful Souls’ as it’s meant to encourage people to focus more on their mysterious and beautiful souls, rather than their outer appearance. This is absolutely relevant to this age today, as a lot of things, such as music, for example, depend on image rather than quality.

To conclude, you have homework, get this book today!

 

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I think that the best indication of how much you love and care for yourself is the time where you don’t have the people who love you connected to you emotionally. When people provide you with love, it feeds your ego. It makes you feel secure, content, and it gets too comfortable. When they suddenly go, and stop feeding you with love, all there is to provide you with genuine love and care is yourself.

I learnt this because I’m naturally independent, but I still need love and care. But when someone who once provided me with everything I want, hurt me, I felt empty, as if a part of my heart was filled by that person, but I can’t fill it with my own love to myself. Suddenly, I just started not caring about things. My health declined, and self-content too. I even stopped blogging and talking to people (well, as much people), as I wanted alone time to self-reflect.

I do feel vulnerable when I write my deepest emotions on the internet, especially when a lot of readers know me in person but have no idea what I’m experiencing. But we need to let go of our egos, and just be transparent with our feelings, because we are all vulnerable. When we were born, we were vulnerable, but didn’t hide it. So, why are we hiding it now?

What happened to me wasn’t bad, it was a mini phase of self-growth. The fact that I point out these negative feelings I have towards myself now, means that I will avoid these feelings in the future. I’m being sensitive enough to distinguish and indicate my emotions, however major or minor, to become a better version of me.

It’s important to become sensitive enough to the workings of your body, mentally, emotionally, and physically, so you can clearly sense when your body is telling you a something (in my case, it’s an unwanted feeling, and my body was telling me to sort it out).

 

Don’t know what career you want?

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Visit   www.sokanu.com 

I finally found a careers website that asks you various questions about your personality, what you enjoy, what you definitely want or don’t want in a job, and then it finds you the right careers for you, according to your persona. It’s great if you have no clue what you want to be/what you want to study, as with each job, it gives you how compatible you are with it in percentages.

After it analyses you, it gives you the most suitable occupations.

After it analyses you, it gives you the most suitable occupations.

Scroll down for endless ideas, ordered by compatibility in %

Scroll down for endless ideas, ordered by compatibility in %

A more in-depth view

A more in-depth view

It even shows you where you can get the highest salary in the specified occupation.

It even shows you where you can get the highest salary in the specified occupation.

The only disadvantage is that it asks so many questions, so it takes time. And, it’s more focused on America rather than the whole world (as you can see above). But, seriously, made my day (and my exam results too). :p

Sugar Cane!!!!!!!

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I finally have sugar cane, been waiting for them for a long long time! In Egypt, we usually have sugar cane juice in super fancy cups so you would drink it and peer at all the beautiful stray cats around you… *nostalgia*

But here, I would just peel it and chew on it like an angry person…

Here are some benefits of sugar cane:

 

  • Sugarcane, being low on glycemic index, helps keep the body fit and healthy.
  • Sugarcane juice has been found to be very beneficial for preventing as well as treating sore throat, cold and flu.
  • Since sugarcane has no simple sugar, it can be enjoyed by diabetics without any fear. However, they intake should still be limited for people suffering from type-2 diabetes.
  • Being alkaline in nature, sugarcane juice helps the body in fighting against cancer, especially prostate and breast cancer.
  • Sugarcane provides glucose to the body, which is stored as glycogen and burned by the muscles, whenever they require energy. Therefore, it is considered to be one of the best sources of energy.
  • If you have been exposed to heat and physical activity for too long, drink sugarcane juice. It will help hydrate the body quickly.
  • Sugarcane is believed to strengthen stomach, kidneys, heart, eyes, brain, and sex organs.
  • Sugarcane clears the urinary flow and also helps the kidney to perform its functions smoothly.
  • As sugarcane consists of carbohydrates, in good quantities, it serves to refresh and energize the body. It supplies instant energy to working muscles and for this reason, it is also known to maximize performance in sports and endurance.
  • Sugarcane is also good for digestion, as it can effectively work as a mild laxative because of its high potassium content.

Source: http://lifestyle.iloveindia.com/lounge/benefits-of-sugarcane-1882.html

 

 

A World With No Labels

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imageI wish the world didn’t have any labels. If there were no countries, we would just call our world ‘Earth’, we would just call all living things ‘creatures’, so we’re all equal. We wouldn’t place names we can’t pronounce on people with health issues, because they’re just fine. We would stop judging people based on appearance and start discovering each other. We would view the killing of anyone to be unjust, not based on where they live. But the world wouldn’t  work without labels because humans like to give labels to everything, in order to feel more secure. Humans work on a basis of ‘good’ and ‘bad’, ‘beautiful’ and ‘ugly’, ‘right’ and ‘wrong’, hence one of the first things you psychologically do when watching a movie is give these labels to the characters. But how are we as humans understanding each other if we all label things differently?

Labels may be a way to be more ‘civilised’ (another label), to put rules in society in order for us to live ‘correctly’ (not do ‘bad’ things). The government has the label of ‘power’ because without it, we’d be so barbaric. But guess what? We already are barbaric. I feel that ‘society’ is built upon image – people with black suits and glasses who look smart, it’s nothing. If we lived in a lost world with no labels, in my opinion, it would be a much better place, rather than to live in a civilised world that isn’t civilised in any way. A world where smartness is labelled upon the person with a PHD or someone who can use big, complicated words is superficial. A world where innovation means manufacturing new weapons that can kill more people with as little effort as possible is wrong. A world that does have money but chooses to spend it on being so technologically advanced rather than to feed its own people and then complain of an ‘economic breakdown’ is barbaric. A world where people are so ignorant of each other, they create barriers between each other due to race, religion, sex, gender, age, colour, whatever is not civilised.

But I was wrong, I used ‘world’ in every sentence above and it’s not the world, it’s individual people. In fact, it’s not the individual people but it’s their individual choices because we’re all born innocent. I sometimes seem ‘anti-human’, but I know the world is full of beautiful souls (sounds cheesy, but true) and I love them. I just want to see more unity, warmth, understanding, care, tolerance and above all, love because every one of us has the energy to do that. It’s those little things you do when you go out and help someone who’s lost, give up your seat for someone, give charity (not to ‘overcome world poverty’, but to be the cause of someone smiling), and to greet people with pretty smiles.

We are so lucky!

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imageI feel so blessed as I honestly have everything I want. Sometimes it strikes an inner fear of losing what I have. I could have been located in war zones, unsafe, hostile places with hardly any human rights. Do we ever forget that we’re actually so blessed? Yet, I just want to be really humble and when I think that I’m so blessed and get these little butterflies from inside, I think “it’s too much for me” and I start to feel guilty as there is so much power in my hands.

Then, I get people who think I’m waaaay too lucky, a girl with a nice house, rich, beautiful, has cool, young looking parents and no siblings (always a plus). And I’m like wait… Half these things are not even true. They say “your life is so perfect, I wish I had a mum or dad like you” “I can’t believe you wear make-up, you make me feel so ugly because you’re already beautiful” “I want your life, I want your body”. All these comments make me feel so guilty and I’m constantly being labelled upon how I superficially look like. You should actually be me to really know what my life is like, but then I think, wait, maybe they’re right. My life really is perfect, and if anyone looks in it, they wouldn’t find a flaw. In fact, the only flaw in any life is the person, because the person is the one who chooses how to see their own life.

Everyone on earth gets something if they actually seek something. We all come to this life with a certain amount of gifts and blessings, whether it’s a piece of bread or a giant palace. Don’t look at what others have, not because you can’t properly judge their lives, but because you should be busy enough with yours. No matter how much you compare yourself to someone, nothing will change, but the time that passes away in which YOU could have changed something in your life. Time is not just money, time is energy, time is growing, and time is learning. It’s all about the actions you take, if you want money, Google ‘how to start my own business’ NOW, if you want to change the way your body looks, stop researching and start moving your body. If you want to become an inspiration, live genuinely and honestly and seek to improve yourself, not others. Because the truth is, everyone’s an inspiration, and I learn something from every single person I’ve met and always will.

I didn’t make this blog so I can be labelled as an ‘inspiration’, or to ‘change lives’, I made it to express my inner feelings as I grow. I am a normal person who isn’t perfect, who makes mistakes, and can be mean (sometimes). So in no way should me or my life be labelled as ‘perfect’. Yet, I am thankful for myself and everything I have.