I want to hold you so close next to my heart, you’re my soul mate, the soul that completes mine… You’re my love, my first love, and you’ll forever be my love. I want to hug you to tight that I merge into you, when we merge, the epitome of love emerges out of us, like the light of the sun shining so bright, that no one can can go through, that showers people and the vegetation with life, that flourishes everything around it. Our bond so strong that I use all my might and power to protect you, because you’re a part of me, a part of my skin that completes me. A part of my heart that completes me. A part of my soul, because when I met you, I knew you, I felt you. Instantly. Did I know you from before? Before I came to being? You’re my light that made me fall in love with myself at a time I didn’t know who I was. Not because you loved me, but because you made me feel like I’m a bearer of life. You made me realise my strength, my passion, and that I could hold life within me. You made me realise the endless ocean that’s inside me, moving with such density, that holds all the feelings inside me. You held me, opened me up so I could cry out that ocean.
This is only an estimate of what this smoothie can provide, 1461 calories, and 47 grams of protein (woah!) It’s great for people who want to increase their daily calories, perhaps gain weight, or those who do body-building. You can really alter the ingredients, depending on your preferences (but this may alter the calorie and protein intake). You can also add protein powder, or more fruits for extra protein and quick carbohydrates. However, if you’re looking to significantly increase your protein intake, make sure you eat protein with every meal (around 20-30 grams of protein) because your body cannot actually absorb a very high amount of protein at once, therefore, for building muscles, it is more beneficial to spread out your protein intake during the day.
- 2 cups of cow’s milk: 84 calories, 8g of protein (or the milk of your choice, please note that cow’s milk can cause you to feel bloated, especially when drinking such a rich smoothie, so I would recommend another type of milk!)
- 45 g oats: 175 calories, 8g of protein
- 2 bananas: 200 calories, 2 g of protein
- 100g almonds: 600 calories, 21g of protein
- 1 large tablespoon of peanut butter: 100 calories, 4g of protein
- 1 large tablespooon of almond butter: 100 calories, 4g of protein
- 3 tablespoons of honey: 192 calories
- 1 tsp maca powder: 10 calories
- Ice (or frozen fruits/bananas)
Blend all the ingredients together (I usually like to blend the almonds first so they turn to powder or you can soak them in water overnight to soften them up) and enjoy the yummines! ♥
It scares me when I’m at school and I look around me to see every individual looking into their phones, numb to their surroundings. It really scares me. The moment I zone out and observe, literally every single one staring at their phone screens, not interacting with one another. When I’m on the bus and zone out, every person around me has ear phones in their ear. Everyone looks the same, everyone does the same thing. And I think that each and every one of those people have accounts online, adding to the massive database, containing their private information and life. Every single person’s life is added to that database that’s owned by who? I don’t know. That scares me. So artificial and unnatural.
This is a super healthy, energising, protein filled recipe and I love eating it for breakfast! It does not look very appetising but it is very delicious! Especially if you’re craving something sweet, at the same time, want something nutrious and filling, this is perfect!
- 1-2 bananas (I usually use 2!)
- 1 scoop of hemp protein powder (provides around 14g of protein, all the essential amino acids, fibre, and lots of omega 3 and 6!)
- 2 eggs (around 12g of protein and high in vitamins A, E, K, B, and folic acid)
- Around 1 tbsp of honey (or less/more depending on your taste buds! You can substitute honey for any liquid sweetener that you would like)
- Oats (I usually add enough so the batter is at a thicker consistency, but this also adds good complex carbohydrates as well as more protein!) I usually like to add 95g to have more calories and carbohydrates.
- Coconut oil to fry
Start off with mashing the bananas well with a fork and add the eggs. Mix well but be careful not to mix too harshly as this can breakdown some of the nutrients in the eggs. Next, mix in the hemp protein powder, and the honey. Then gradually add in the oats so the batter reaches a thicker consistency so it sticks together while frying. Pour a bit of the pancake mixture in a hot, oiled pan (but be careful because this pancake can burn quickly!) and flip it to the other side when it is golden brown. Serve with anything that you like or you can eat it plain as this pancake is a filling, nutritious meal! Enjoy ♥♥
I feel so lonely right now like I’m the only person in the world..
Am I the only person who thinks its not weird to go up to a random person and say ‘hi, I’m going through this and that in my life’? If that was the case, the other person may think you’re weird, you’re random, or they need to get away from you because that’s just not ‘normal’. It’s okay to ask someone for the time, directions, but it’s not normal to go up to someone and say ‘hey.. Have you ever felt like this?’. It’s like a taboo subject. I get surprised whenever people tell me ‘you must really trust me to say this to me’ or ‘Lugine you don’t share things like that with people’, it’s not normal. I feel estranged because I don’t own my experiences, but they’re there to be shared and be opened about. Because inside of us we are all going through the same thing. We’re all vulnerable. We all need to open up with each other, hug each other, and share. There is some kind of distance between me and the words that I say. When I say something, I’m not ‘saying something so personal to myself’ even though people view it as personal, but I see a distance between the words I say and the very me. I sometimes have this openedness that some people oppose, people think I’m weird. By time I learnt so ‘socialise’ myself in what to say and share with people. But I actually don’t like that. I want to walk with no weight upon myself, I want to walk like an opened heart, feeling and sharing everything. Walking emotionally bare. There is no taboo subject to me, there is nothing that you can say to me that’s ‘weird’ because I know that it’s inside us all.
I guess that’s why people always approach me for things, for help, random people on the street talk to me, pick me to talk to, rather than anybody else due to emitting that openedness because people feel it. People feel that you’re opened to them. Why do people generally find it hard to be emotional or to cry in public? To be opened to the world? To not feel awkward to show their very emotion? Why do some people feel uncomfortable when conversations get too deep, too emotional and hard to grasp? Why are people walking like a rigid, rational, machine rather than a flowy, soft, opened to feel human being? I wish the world was like that.. That anyone can just walk up to anyone and say ‘I’m going through this’ and they both hug each other and other says ‘I’m going through this too’. Love.
My experience with waist training after one month…
I’ve always wanted a waist trainer, but I was somehow hesitant to if it actually works, is it safe, and what’s the point if I can just workout to get the shape I want? So far, I have lost 1.5″ off my waist, down to 23.5″ and I’m actually quite surprised because I didn’t think it would be that effective on me. After just one to two weeks of wearing it I’ve noticed that it helps to flatten my stomach and enhance my shape more. Also, my favourite feature about the waist trainer is that it significantly improved my posture and it’s more second-nature to me to have a better posture even if I’m not wearing it. I never wanted to get a waist trainer as a weight loss medium, in fact, I’m actually trying to gain weight, but I wanted it to improve my body shape more, and attain a smaller waist, which is what I prefer on myself, (I’m not trying to portray that this is the ideal body type in any way, I’m just expressing what I prefer on myself and sharing my experience with my readers!). Continue reading
A beautiful soul got me this amazing book about Japanese skincare, and I will be sharing with you some of the tips and tricks that I pick up from this book very soon! 😀 ♥
Marula oil is by far my favourite skin care essential (along with rosewater!), it is a naturally anti-ageing, anti-oxidant rich oil, that’s reportedly the more powerful version of Morrocan argan oil. Through using it, I found that my skin looks so much more radiant, and youthful, especially when I apply it at night, in the morning my skin seriously looks magically amazing! This oil is so light weight, it absorbs fast into my skin, and even gives a matte finish to the skin (it can even be used as a make-up primer). It is a little bit pricey, but I think it’s totally worth it, since it’s completely natural, not artificial, and works absolutely amazing for the skin…
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You need to do two things – replenish protein levels and deeply condition. Replenishing protein levels in your hair is vital since this is what your hair is made from and all the damaged done to it by heat, chemicals, and everyday wear and tear can strip your hair from its optimum protein levels, and therefore leaving it weak, lifeless, and not in it’s natural state. Deep conditioning is also highly important so you supply your hair with enough moisture to keep it smooth, and sustain it’s elasticity.
I find myself lost. I don’t know who I am. What I stand for. Just lost in emotions. Where am I? I find myself being 12 again. The age of 12 when I faced so many major changes in my life, confused about my identity, asking who am I, where am I, why am I created. A time of complete confusion. A time where I felt lonely, a time where I felt like I needed so much, I needed freedom. Physical and spiritual freedom. I had no confidence. Constrained within myself. I didn’t feel beautiful. Nothing made me feel beautiful. I used to wish someone told me I was truly beautiful. I used to wish a boy could hold me, touch me, just out of pure love and emotion. I used to wish someone can look into my eyes and uplift me, lift me up so so high that I wouldn’t feel a thing. My face showed absolutely no sign of what I was suffering from inside. I wanted to be held, I wanted to feel safe. I wanted someone to wrap around me, protect me. I was so lonely. Gradually during my teenage years, I developed and became a whole new person, each day, just reflecting and growing, mentally and emotionally. I went to all different directions, tried them, experienced them, and picked where I want to be. I got incredible confidence, from simply reducing myself down to my soul, emitting pure love, a pure smile to everything around me. I got to a point where I felt genuine happiness in my life. And through all I’ve been through, I’ve genuinely realised how purely blessed I am, what I want in life, to live a life full of growth, love, and pure embracing of my emotions, good and bad, because they’re all experiences and they’re a blessing for me. That’s how I continued and I know that’s how I want to continue, just living genuinely with love. But how do I feel right now? I feel like I’m back to 12 or my early teenage years. I feel like I want so much, I want so much love, I want to be wrapped and protected. I feel scared. I don’t feel like I’m beautiful. I created this blog originally to share my emotions, and positivity on body image and self-acceptance. How ironic I find myself 3 years later wanting that self acceptance all over again. It’s not as intense as when I was younger, but I really feel like I’m not good enough.. I’m not beautiful enough.. I’m not complete.. I’m crying as I write this.. I don’t know who I am I don’t know what I want.. I feel confused.. I feel like I am nothing.. I want to cry cry cry all my emotions out.. It’s overwhelming.. But this is just growth…